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Disillusioned

by Praise Of Folly

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APE Amazing! Updated mastering, production, and sequencing bolster this rerelease. Opening with an ethereal “Thee Envisioned” sets the darkened, silhouetted stage. “Evelyn Widow” kicks harder, and sets up slow-burners “Ashen Aged Silence,” and “Teardrop Garden”. The group’s drum machine offers steady, and reliable rhythm, underscoring chorus-drenched guitars and highlighting McFarlan’s vocals. This version keeps the original final third, closing with the untouchable “He Stands Cross-Armed.” Favorite track: Evelyn Widow.
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    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.

    Includes bonus downloads: Disillusioned 17 page eBook with artwork, premonition poem, lyrics for all songs, band photo and album liner notes; The Hanged Man high resolution poster in digital format suitable for high resolution printing at 8x10 inches; Praise Of Folly theme computer desktop background images in the 1920x1080 size.
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  • Compact Disc (CD) + Digital Album

    The freshly remastered/remixed Praise Of Folly "Disillusioned" album on Compact Disc with all new artwork in a 6 panel double gatefold CD booklet, plus an additional lyric booklet with lyrics for all songs in a 4 panel CD booklet. This CD package comes in a classic CD jewel case.

    Includes unlimited streaming of Disillusioned via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
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  • Compact Disc (CD) + Digital Album

    The freshly remastered/remixed Praise Of Folly "Disillusioned" album on Compact Disc with all new artwork in a 6 panel double gatefold CD booklet, plus an additional lyric booklet with lyrics for all songs in a 4 panel CD booklet. This CD package comes in a classic CD jewel case.

    Autographed by hand in silver metallic ink by Thomas on the band portrait page of the double gatefold CD booklet, plus a short thank you notecard written on black archival paper in silver metallic ink. If you wish the notecard to be dedicated to you or a friend simply request this in the notes section of your purchase order with the name that is to be used in the dedication on the card--otherwise the name of the buyer as listed on BandCamp will be used for the dedication.

    Includes unlimited streaming of Disillusioned via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.
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1.
Thin fingers caress an envisioned man Horizontal and weaving on the floor Weaving on the floor Weaving on the floor Weaving on the floor Cowering away between two walls Fear seeps through skin Grip my hands as I heave to the floor Feel my lifeless body drained and used like a whore Grip these tears that coat my eyes And let me sleep forevermore Thin fingers caress an envisioned man Horizontal and weaving on the floor Weaving on the floor Weaving on the floor Weaving on the floor Cigarettes burn and fill the air Breath so still I can feel her stare Grip my hands as I heave to the floor Feel my lifeless body drained and used like a whore Grip these tears that coat my eyes And let me sleep forevermore The devil’s blood eating away my skin Licking at my tongue, an elaborate sin Cigarettes burn and fill the air My breath so still I can feel her stare Night turns to day in an array of light My body falls ill slender and light Reality drops like candle wax beads Burning the bliss away from the dream Away from the dream Away from the dream
2.
Back in step with pain and worry The reality of, the temptation to escape Caress me with smooth black silk and strangle me with dead white lace The reality of the smile of make believe Silk slips through fingers, futile grasps To wander in a daytime dream I’m thinking of your ice cold skin I can’t see what shouldn’t be Impulsive from reality Crippling logic insanity Underneath it embraces me Take me down, me and my true love Burn in your, amber ecstasy Turning green, to black my consciousness I’ll take her lovely pain away, lovely pain away I can’t see what shouldn’t be Impulsive from reality Crippling logic insanity Underneath it embraces me Within my waxing consciousness Embracing scents let me wander in a dream I’ll take her lovely pain away, lovely pain away
3.
Evelyn Widow 04:13
My lips have touched yours For slighted moment Which keeps an intrigue An elaborate ornament Blacked blue-green and slow pulsed Not unlike a swim through paste I envy my own position to recall your mouth’s taste I’m in loathe of my lovely Evelyn Widow I’m in loathe of my lovely Evelyn Widow I’m in loathe of my lovely Evelyn Widow To the west of the candle room where three of the burnt remain The wax, stuck-bled-with-wax, and the heat moan oil sustains I sit by my window rattles nature not in my room I alone live noticeably, and a dead blows ill tempered fumes I’m in loathe of my lovely Evelyn Widow I’m in loathe of my lovely Evelyn Widow I’m in loathe of my lovely Evelyn Widow
4.
Stardust lays upon your eyelids And dreams of death will soon become your, every waking moment Your every thought and scheme Sandy flesh slides through your fingers With a dim like reality, it defines your hands Time will never tell the wisdom of a haggard mind Ashen aged refined and thin without a sense of kind, no Sour dreams of material things and the insects crawling up my spine Insight an angelic glance and pebbles sown to my mind The glass breaks at the end of the hall now And the end seems such a pleasurable pain A vision waits within a shadow, a vision waits in vain Intrigue and beauty are gone again, within the blinking of an eye Only the past remains Time will never tell the wisdom of a haggard mind Ashen aged refined and thin without a sense of kind, no Sour dreams of material things and the insects crawling up my spine Insight an angelic glance and pebbles sown to my mind
5.
Infestation of the masses Divine these lonely eyes A fear of dormant treasure to ignore its bloody past Strength remains but cries Strength remains but cries Strength remains but cries In our first days throughout time, broken dreams blurred our sight Pale lights lead the way, upon every face a crooked guise Envy of dead blossom Lying bound, lying bound by innocents Hallowed beauty dance before me A drink denied the thirst A drink denied the thirst In our first days throughout time, broken dreams blurred our sight Pale lights lead the way, upon every face a crooked guise
6.
In My Eyes 03:37
On softly woven fabrics And black laden sheets Escape to the moonlight Ours alone to feast Young androgynous boy in black His tale-tell heart lifted to the sea In my eyes I see the light That lies behind the darkest side In my eyes I see the light That lies behind your phantom-less eyes Voices whisper in my mind Of forgotten people left to lie Dead flowers stain the scarlet side Of the hills that wander in my eyes Beautiful young girl in black Her tale-tell heart lifted to the sea In my eyes I see the light That lies behind the darkest side In my eyes I see the light That lies behind your phantom-less eyes
7.
In this constant state We begin to consider our own being A cruel game of heaven or hell In sunlit madness and cutting cold Keeping time with our despair Praying, praying for the verdict To console our fears The hanged man waits upon the wall The hanged man waits to dissolve In a time when our eyes lay veiled In a moment of flash, I am with you The hand of time moves through the years And in silence we are unanswered Afraid of the unknown, afraid of ourselves And as I meet God in death I shall fear no evil The hanged man waits upon the wall The hanged man waits to dissolve In a time when our eyes lay veiled In a moment of flash I am with you
8.
You are the one with a mask sown to your face You are the one with artificial eyes You are the one with hidden laws For you I hold no pity, I hold no remorse Move on with your cowardly designs Conviction never falters, never blinks an eye You will end in a nameless grave Below not one true heart will save You are the one who reeks of ignorance You are the one who will die in regret You are the one who will dig your own grave For you I hold no pity, I hold no remorse Move on with your cowardly designs Conviction never falters, never blinks an eye You will end in a nameless grave Below not one true heart will save
9.
Cursed water, fatty hollow Pink doll fingers, black marker scars Half-float dirty, plastic tubs Mocking water’s, holy vessels Stone sulfur smooth, section of home I’m directed towards, some sad scene Similar to anything, obstructed He stands cross armed He stands cross armed

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As the world burns from the inside out, "Disillusioned" has landed on BandCamp and is ready and waiting to take you on a dark trip of introspection and dark musical dynamism...

The 1995 cult classic gothic post punk release "Disillusioned", by Praise Of Folly, has been dramatically remastered and partially remixed by the band's leader Thomas McFarlan in 2021 for the digital age and is now available in Digital Download and Compact Disc formats on BandCamp with all new artwork.

Celebrated by the leading 1990s alternative rock magazine, "B-Side Magazine", as "the future" of gothic post punk, this highly sought after and long out of print release has been one of the best kept secrets in the music collections of the most discriminating gothic post punk aficionados.

From editor Nick C's review in B-Side Magazine May/June 1996: “On their album “Disillusioned” Praise Of Folly hold on to the dark atmosphere without getting overly dramatic or self paradic. Instead the trio fronted by the vocals of Thomas soars even while exploring the depths. This one lingers at the mouth of the cave, still able to marvel over the beauty of the darkness while enjoying a breath of fresh air. Here’s the future kids.”

The poem "Premonition" has been released by Thomas to coincide with the newly remastered/remixed album and "for your fierce disillusionment"...

Premonition

Standing at the gilded crossing
With warring factions on either hand
To left the bruised and battered seekers
Parading with true and false light
The marred who can

And to right, the technocratic towers
Shining ever so white and clear
Like a glittering city glimpsed
On a familiar horizon, as I stand here

I heave, with pangs that shout
My human frailty, it may not be long for this world
And with the anti living, I can not live

The electromagnetic haze has merged their will
Stolen their soul, with double speak and roses
Yet there, where the technocratic reign pours
There, where the digital concrete soars

I was groomed to adorn that world
With obedience and praises
Theirs was my world

Now then, why so alien still?
As I stand here

For I can neither dwell in their world
Nor turn about
To scythe those soaring towers
With true and false light
But only loiter
Among the beguiled the reign has slain

Yet in every fleeting lucid moment
The path within becomes clear
Where the winged soul, not cursed with doubt
Can glide sovereign in time and space
Spirit set free

And they who planned those technocratic towers
They too wish for their spirit
To them their world can bring faith
In an A.I. driven destiny

But none for me, as I stand here
Between two ways torn
Sovereign in stillness
Between kings and their sheep
The only way out is within and through

- Thomas McFarlan
From the City of Angels
October 2021

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released October 22, 2021

Thomas McFarlan: Lead and Backing Vocals, Bass Guitar, Electronic Drums
Mike Naz: Rhythm and Lead Electric Guitars, Acoustic Guitar
Ryan Thompson: Acoustic Drums, Backing Vocals and Lead Vocal Duet w/Thomas on Track 9
Drew: Keyboards, Drum Programming and Backing Vocals
Bryna Golden (from the Babylonian Tiles): Lead Vocal Duet w/Thomas on Track 5

Produced by: Thomas McFarlan
Co-Produced by: Mike Naz and Mike Parnin
Engineered by: Mike Parnin
Originally Mixed by: Thomas McFarlan, Mike Parnin and Mike Naz
2021 Edition Mix Augmented by: Thomas McFarlan with Izotope Studios
2021 Edition Mastered by: Thomas McFarlan with Izotope Studios

Originally Recorded and Mixed at: C.B. Studios, Ventura, CA

Cover & Booklet Art Direction, Graphic Design & Photography Collage: Secret Cargo

Thanks To: Serendipity, for presenting the opportunity to create art again...

All music and lyrics ©1990-2021 Praise Of Folly. All Rights Reserved. Released by Secret Cargo. ℗ Secret Cargo Music.

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Praise Of Folly Los Angeles, California

Praise Of Folly is the gothic post punk band of California based singer-songwriter and multi-instrumentalist Thomas McFarlan. The band’s sound has an inventive and eclectic character to it that combines a hypnotic gothic post punk aesthetic with art rock sensibility—leaving common gothic music cliches in the dust. ... more

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